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1 in 4 girls

1 in 4 girls is sexually abused during childhood.

I am 1 in 4 girls.
I am, so far, a survivor.
This is my story.

These are my thoughts, prayers, fears, nightmares;
but also my joys, loves, comforts, strengths...

22nd
May
Sun
  • Be

    How can I be a friend when I don’t trust anyone to know the truth about me?

    How can I be a lover when my version of an orgasm is crying hysterically?

    How can I be a wife when I look at any father and daughter relationship doubtfully?

    How can I be a mother when my father abused me and my mother neglected me?

    How can I be a nursery teacher when every time I see a little girl, I feel so unhappy?

    How can I be all these things I want to be?

  • 28th
    Apr
    Thu

    “I think that all the silence is worse than all the violence…”

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    16th
    Apr
    Sat

    insomniackdesigns:

    “One In Four” - Sexual Violence Documentary

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    Notes: 20
    Reblogged from insomniackdesigns
    16th
    Apr
    Sat
  • I WISH I COULD SHOW YOU GUYS WHO I AM.

    sexualabusesurvivor:

    I really really really do! I want the world to know the truth about me already. I want to come clean to all of my friends and acquaintances! …and I’ll never understand why it’s such a difficult thing to do. :/

    Amen

    (Source: imightaswelljump)

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    Notes: 3
    Reblogged from imightaswelljump
  • 15th
    Apr
    Fri
  • Tags:
    Notes: 35
    Reblogged from thespicedsunsets
  • 15th
    Apr
    Fri
  • “ I’ve been alone
    When I’m surrounded by friends
    How could the silence be so loud? ”

    - Beyonce - Ave Maria
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  • 14th
    Apr
    Thu
  • Pretend

    Let us pretend
    that nothing ever happened
    that you didn’t put your hand
    inside of my pant
    that you didn’t betray my trust
    that you didn’t give into your sick lust
    that you didn’t fuck with my brain
    that you didn’t make me feel shame
    that you didn’t make me want to hide
    that you didn’t make me want to die

    Tags: child sex abuse csa poetry pretend incest 
    Notes: 7
  • 14th
    Apr
    Thu
  • Hate

    I hate your face
    I hate your beard
    I hate your lips
    I hate your voice

    I hate the way you talk
    I hate the way you shout
    I hate the way you argue
    I hate the way you attack

    I hate it when you slurp your coffee
    I hate it when you chew so loudly
    I hate it when you try to hug me
    I hate it when you comment on how I look

    I hate that these things are so trivial
    I hate that everything you do affects me so much
    I hate that I have to see you everyday
    I hate that I hate mum because of what you’ve done

    I hate mum because she never saw the abuser in you
    I hate mum because she never saw the pain in me
    I hate mum because she took you back into our home
    I hate mum because she pretends that nothing happened

    Tags: child sex abuse csa dad hate poetry Survivor 
    Notes: 3
  • 14th
    Apr
    Thu

    I’m burnin tires on the strip, tryna get a grip
    Liquor in the cupholder, tryna get a sip
    6 shots of Hennessey, I’m still goin strong
    Please numb me from the bullshit that’s goin on
    That girl was 5 years old that they just murdered
    and did some wicked shit to her that was unheard of
    You fuckin’ coward.

    No matter how I hate flashbacks and rewinds
    Can’t escape the pain that be trapped in my mind
    See world -
    You’re no good.

    13th
    Apr
    Wed

    Thinkin’ with your brains blown that would make the pain go?
    No, you gotta find a way to survive
    ‘cause they win when your soul dies

    Baby don’t cry, you gotta keep ya head up
    Even when the road is hard, never give up

    11th
    Apr
    Mon
  • Her

    Nightmares trap her
    demons attack her
    something chases her
    always the case for her
    no rest ‘cause sleep’s stressing her
    like the devil’s testing her
    but it’s not amusing for her
    flashbacks of dad abusing her

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    Accent Red by Neil Talwar